Only Girl in the World

Part of this blog is a shout out to my girl Holly "Luxurious" F. <3

I really enjoyed her recent blog post on getting the help you need, and being ready to change. I've been feeling the change vibes lately, in a different area. I love to be comfortable-- snuggled in my bed, with a pillow on the couch, even down to the clothes I'm wearing-- I need to feel comfortable to function. Sometimes this can be bad-- I don't want to be comfortable in life, although that's where I automatically retreat.

I have so many goals/dreams, and all of them require a little stretching on my part, and that can be so scary! But when I look back at all that I have already done, I realized I have survived a lot of tough stretching and putting myself out there, and I can do more! My current, ultimate dream, is to do event planning at Disneyland. Hello! Magical! But it's tough.

A. It's a tough business.

B. It's tough to get into Disney.

Sometimes I get so scared that I won't make it, that I think I want another dream. False. I always go back to my Disney dreams.

But to get there, I gotta succeed here-- at the Davis County Fair (in sponsorship goals, increasing revenue, schmoozing with the who's who in Davis County, all that craziness!) & with any personal education goals (Masters? Event Planning Certificate?). Money is always an issue, and I hate how it can hold us back. But I also dislike debt. It stinks.

Josh and I had a great conversation the other night about this very thing. We only have one life, one life to do everything we want to do here on Earth-- so why should I waste it because I don't have enough money to get a Master's, travel to Europe, take voice lessons, etc.? I firmly believe that no one should do that. No one should be content and complacent with settling. Is that fun? No! And I, my friends, am all about fun. Work hard, and figure out a way to get that cold hard cash. :) Lately I feel like everyday I've been having to tell myself, "Remember what you want to do. Remember your dreams. Push yourself." Deep down inside, I really do want to push myself, and I am. But it's still hard!

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And in other news--- this has been the BEST WEEK EVER!

Beginning: VIVA LAS VEGAS! Surprise trip to Vegas, From Josh to Megan. HOLLA. (pics to come!)

Middle: BIEBER FEVER! Hello, lots of my favorite people in one well-done, entertaining film: The Biebs (I'm in it for the long haul), Usher Baby, and Boyz II Men. Yes, we screamed out loud in the theater.

End: SHUT UP WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU! Linkin Park, as always, was AWESOME! And ROCKIN! I can't believe those guys. It was a great show!

In the end, I am such a lucky girl, and this week helped me feel like the "Only Girl in the World"... in a good way. :)

Hungry Like the Wolf

I love when I can find a little nugget in a random place. I was watching one of my guilty pleasures, 90210, and there was a little nugget! Here it is:

A Cherokee chief was telling his grandson about life. He told him that there are two wolves inside of us that are always fighting. One is evil, full of anger, jealousy, lust, and the other is good, full of joy and love. The grandson asked, "Which wolf will win?" And the chief said, "The one you feed."

Doin' Choreography

A few recent observations:

1. I don't realize how crazy my hand motions are until I see the person I'm talking to watching my hands, not my face.

2. I LOVE my old school jams! Case in point, my recent downloads have been:

• Nivea- "Don't Mess With My Man"
• Mya- "Case of the Ex"
• Salt n' Pepa- "Shoop"
• SWV- "Weak"
• Brandy- "Sittin' Up in My Room" and about 5 other songs! :)
• Joe feat. Mystikal- "Stutter"
• Blaque feat. JC Chasez (my *Nsync boyfriend)- "Bring It All to Me"
• Toni Braxton- "He Wasn't Man Enough for Me" and again, about 5 other songs.

I think this list is pretty indicative of the music mood I've been. Bring on the JAMS!!!

Say You Wanna Revolution?

I have had a life revolution. Or revelation? How about both! My lovely mother-in-law sent us this "Change Your Brain Change Your Body" DVD after we talked about it at Thanksgiving, and I am in love. In love with Dr. Amen and in love with changing my BRAIN! And my body, too. :)

So, what I'm saying is, go read, watch, or listen to some Dr. Amen. I've been watching calories and working out a lot more recently, which I think might make all this Amen stuff a little easier to take. I'm not saying I'll never eat cake again, because that would be a joke, but I'm definitely improving what I eat. Cucumbers or bell peppers instead of tortilla chips? You got it! Simple changes like that can really change your life, and prolong your life. It's all about high quality calories in-- and I am all for it!

I think this is the perfect time in my life for this. In the past, I have been too quick to give in and indulge. Now, I have time to think about what I am putting in my body, and I actually do care! I have had way too many low self-esteem pitfalls, and I'm over it! In the past few months I have really surprised myself-- at work I have turned down free cake, a chocolate chip muffin, and other goodies. I KNOW! Can you believe it?! Just one of the few signs that I am ready for a life change.

So I'm taking fish oil (odorless! holla!) and vitamin D (sunshine in a supplement... Utah is too drab these days) and eating the rainbow (squash, berries, spinach, bananas, etc.). I'm continuing to workout, and I got a yoga DVD at the library yesterday. I think I need to de-stress a little more.

I am loving this revolution and I am loving the changes in my own thought processes. I am glad that I can change and improve.

And on that note, here is my theme for 2011:

"Your life is your own, to develop or to destroy. You can blame others little and yourself almost totally if that life is not a productive, worthy, full, and abundant one. Others can assist or hinder you, but the responsibility is yours and you can make it great, mediocre, or a failure."

-Spencer w Kimball